Baby steps.

It has been almost 11 weeks since I found out I wasn't pregnant (again) and almost 3 weeks since our FET cycle was cancelled. I feel like i'm handling it fairly well, in the big scheme of things, because i'm not crying every time I see a baby commercial or pregnancy announcement anymore..Obviously I haven't stopped completely, but hey. Baby steps..[ha see what I did there?] Anyways, i'm ending week 4 of P90X on Sunday..This week scheduling a lot of yoga and stretching, and I got through 45 minutes of the yoga before I got so sick of Tony Horton in his man leggings that I had to turn it off. I am honestly proud of myself, because my track record with starting and continuing work out programs is pretty bad. But I guess maybe this time i'm really (trying to) commit because there potentially such a wonderful light at the end of this tunnel coming in July with our next cycle. Maybe with my body (and mind) in better shape, my levels will be consistent with where they are supposed to be throughout the process, and our cycle will have a happy ending with one or two embryo's being transferred, and settling into their new home for the following 9-10 months. 

I spoke with our IVF coordinator today, and our tentative transfer date will be the weekend of august 1-3...Whiiccchhh would put my beta test (blood draw to check for the pregnancy hormone) right smack in the middle of our family vacation..SO my dilemma will be, do I go to the local hospital and get it drawn there? Do I take a bunch of HPT's with me and take them at the end of the dreaded two week wait? At least i'll be going on vacation, so my body will be in full relaxation mode. Maybe it's a sign that i'm supposed to find out if we're going to have a baby or not in our favorite place in the world..But on the other hand, it could ruin it for me. Nah, I wouldn't hold a grudge against Sapphire Valley, it wouldn't be the town's fault our babies decided not to turn into babies. Who could hold a grudge in that place? Let's be real.

I am a little nervous because she also told me there really isn't an alternative to the medication (lupron) that I had the adverse reaction to with my estrogen levels,  but she said that there should not be a "flare" this time because I will have been on these stupid birth control (seems ironic, doesn't it?) pills for 2 cycles prior to starting the med..SO we just need to pray that my body behaves itself and falls in line when it is time to start medicating and building my uterus into the taj mahal for these little embryos to snuggle into. 

So my request for anyone deciding to read into my life, that you say a little prayer for our family during all of this. We have always believed in the power of prayer and have seen it work miracles in the lives of people around us, and we have faith that God will answer ours. Peace and love to all of you #weltonout